GOODBYE OR GOOD NIGHT 5

As I began to weep, I began to feel hot, it was like something was burning, like the house was on fire and it was gradually coming to the sitting room, but my siblings all seemed like they were not as hot as I was, they just all bowed their heads and began to pray. It felt like I was then covered up in flames, like my bones were being fried and my skin barbecued. I could see and feel the reality of the gnashing of teeth and the furnace of fire. I could feel it all. I cried and wept and asked how I could be saved. My sins kept flashing before my eyes, all the alcohol, the drugs, the sex, the deceit. I thought I was a Christian, I grew up in a christian home, but at that time, all my good deeds, all my goodness, couldn't save me. I cried out for Jesus. My mother always said He was a Deliverer and a very present help in time of need, I asked Him to please save me, to deliver me, that I had been a good person, that He couldn't possibly deny that fact, but there was nothing, no one to deliver me, no one to help me, not even the Jesus mother had so preciously spoken about. Then I became angry, I got so angry with my mother, with my father, with my siblings, I was angry that they all lied to me about Jesus, they all told me things that once again were untrue. As i wept and my anger swelled, I felt a cool touch on my shoulder, I looked up and saw my father. He smiled and said Son, the Lord is good, ready to forgive always and plenteous in mercy to those who call upon Him
as my father said this, I broke down and cried for mercy, all the wrong i had ever done was right before me and as i asked for forgiveness, as I told Christ to fill my heart and be my Saviour, I felt a cool air, like the fresh wind of the sky and a bit of air conditioner mixed together wash over my entire being. It went through my veins, I felt a rush of blood, like I was taking a cool bath and was being washed clean. After 5 minutes of this feeling, with tears in my eyes, I could feel refreshed, clean, renewed, rejuvenated. I felt like I could accomplish anything. The void that I felt in my heart, that led me to sex and drugs and all that stuff was filled, I could feel it in my bones, there was no emptiness anymore. 

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